I feel alone especially in the night, I don't know why . I really feel suprise that I was not like this before , when I changed ? why I changed ?

I know I should be independence , I should take my purpose step by step .

Why my life changed ,why everything is different with before ? how long I will be fitted in this kind of  life .

I can not answer myself still now , but I will keep thinking everyday , maybe I will be clear one day , I hope to be clear one day .

Sometimes I will think let it be , let it be !!!